Wednesday, May 22, 2024

Some Thoughts on Why Babies Cry

Two people talking:

"We don't know do we? We just know that's it's unanimous.

No happy babies?

No, and they try so hard bless their hearts.

Maybe they know what's coming.

It's very puzzling. That people seem to find it natural. Don't you think that's sad? That no one is concerned? Maybe you're right. That they know what's coming. They seem to be of one mind. It's a troubling thing, isn't it? You can't help but think that they bring their despair into the world with them. Still I can't imagine that they cry in the womb. Even though they might want to........................

It's not that I think so much that babies have opinions. I think it's mostly that they just don't like it here.............as soon as they get here they start wailing. I don't think it has to be the here that's wrong. It could be us. For instance. What if we've become something repugnant to ourselves. That's not a happy thought, is it? Babies early on come to believe that all the things that are happening to them are the work of others otherwise what are the others there for? Isn't that worth crying about?

Why can't they just be wet or hungry?

They can. But these are normally just things that you complain about and not things over which you scream in agony."


These are excerpts from a longer conversation between two characters in The Passenger, a novel written by Cormac McCarthy. I separated them out because this is the heavy stuff that inflamed my emotions.

It's just a different take on things. It's a way of looking at things from a perspective fueled by thought versus acceptance.

Ultimately, the fact that Jackson smiles at Craig and Amanda, after two months on this planet, proves to me that parents hold more power and carry more responsibility than other humans. By far.

This makes me happy.


Please note: This is one of the many reasons you read Cormac McCarthy.

Monday, May 20, 2024

Until.................

Sadness is a natural and healthy part of life.

Until it becomes a choice.

Two Ways I Do Not Want To Die

1) Riding the exercise bike

2) With the CPAP mask on my face


The bike because it would mock the folly of pursuing health.

The mask because an unfashionable corpse leaves nothing to the imagination.

Random Quotes

 "Still at heart I know there's more wisdom in sorrow than in joy."

1) "I mean, do you think if you died drunk you'd sober up before you met Jesus? 2) "Good question. I don't know." 1) I thought about that. Standin' in front of him drunk. What would he say. Hell, what would you say?" 2) "I guess I don't think your soul gets drunk."

"It's just that sometimes I think I would have found my life pretty funny if I hadn't had to live it."


From The Passenger, by Cormac McCarthy

Friday, May 17, 2024

Painful Truths

 "Grief is the stuff of life. A life without grief is no life at all. But regret is a prison. Some part of you which you deeply value lies forever impaled at a crossroads you can no longer find and never forget."

"Again, I've encountered no greater mystery in life than myself."

From The Passenger, by Cormac McCarthy

Thursday, May 16, 2024

Don't Die Just Yet

You cannot afford to die when you are reading a Cormac McCarthy novel.

It's just too fucking important.

Wednesday, May 15, 2024

You Need to Know This

I am a 70 year old man working a part time job to make ends meet.

However, I am not without substance.

I aspire to become an aesthete.