So here I sit.
71 years old. The biggest decision I should have to make is how late to sleep today. Instead, I am working part time, condemned to do so until I die.......................................until a vicious, vengeful, unbalanced man was elected president.
Now I am condemned to working full time until I die. I'm already applying for full time jobs.
When social security is ripped away from us, Carol and I will not survive. We will lose our home.
Brief aside: What kind of heartless, immoral, psychopath takes social security away from people who are already receiving it. If you are opposed to it, lay out a plan to phase it out over time so the younguns can plan ahead. You have to be one cruel son of a bitch to take it away from people who rely on it.
Carol and I will survive. I will get a job. We'll eat spam and I'll drink cheap whiskey. But there are those in my own community who are too old and frail to work, who rely solely on social security. They will suffer. Poverty, health issues, homelessness, and death.
You Fucking Asshole.
To a great extent, it is my fault we are in this position. If I achieved, we'd be sitting pretty. But early in life when I realized I was living the exact life I vowed never to live, I threw up my hands and turned to whiskey and partying. Had a lot of fun. Figured I'd survive. But I did not count on a dictator ripping America to shreds.
You gotta watch out for life. It will fuck you hard and stomp you when you collapse in despair.
I never chased the life I wanted. I gave up instead. Huge mistake. Because from here on out my life is out of my hands. If I was alone I would just drink myself into the grave. But I owe Carol. Owe her big time. She deserves to be happy and unafraid. So I will do what I have to do.
But on my terms. A lot of whiskey will be consumed. With whatever limited free time I will have, I'm going after fun. I will not drag my ass home at night and fall asleep 18 minutes later.
I only get 4 hours of sleep right now. So fuck it. I can push myself hard and I already just don't care.
I admit to my portion of the blame for the way my life turned out. But the harsh truth is that 77 million gullible people voted a man into office who will destroy my life. These peoples' twisted opinions ruined my life. MY LIFE.
The only comfort I take from that, is that he will ruin their lives too.
And they will never see it coming.