Sometimes you are forced to wrap your head around so much fucking negativity that it just doesn't work.
It doesn't fit. It is the wrong shape. Your mind isn't flexible enough because it is grounded in unrealistic beliefs birthed from a perspective that says life just isn't this fucking cruel.
But it is.
Life is as cruel as it gets.
And if you want to stay alive, you gotta roll with it. You gotta fight against this sudden unpredictability that pounds you like a heavyweight champ relentlessly working the body, with an occasional hook to the head.
A punch that drops you to your knees. A punch that drops you but, against all odds and knowing you will probably get dropped again, you get up and lean into the wind.
Sometimes that is what life becomes. Sometimes, suddenly, that is how life is defined.
Life seems so much smaller then. So limited.
You stagger one step to another wondering what is the limit and what is the point.
You create new perspectives that once would have been foreign to you.
And this is what you now must live with.
Your mind shrinks in horror.
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