"This year I will be more thoughtful of my fellow man, exert more effort in each of my endeavors, professionally as well as personally. Take love wherever I find it, and offer it to everyone who will take it. In this coming year I will seek knowledge from those wiser than me and try to teach those who wish to learn from me. I love being alive and I will be the best man I possibly can."
From Duane Allman's journal on January 1, 1969
I need to break this down a little bit this year.
The most important words are about exerting more effort. I need to try, to really fucking try, in everything I do. Professionally and personally. In other words, every minute of every day I need to be aware of what I'm doing, and I need to assess whether it's the right thing to do. If not then I need to make adjustments. Sounds tiring but at this stage in my life it is fucking critical.
This will lead to me being the best man I possibly can. I have tried and failed before, I have failed to try before.
I want to be the best man I possibly can. I yearn for that evolution. I need the peace of mind that will result from getting there.
"I love being alive". I never think that way. Never have. I'm too busy being unhappy. And by doing that, I'm pissing my life away, decade after decade.
I need to start loving being alive because it won't be long before that's taken away from me.
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