I am happy today.
I feel it intensely. I am light hearted and moving freely.
In anticipation.
The final zapping today. Somewhere around 4:15 I will be done with radiation.
This situation has been weighing more heavily on my inner self than I realized.
I reached a state of semi-equilibrium sometime during the process. A place where I recognized the seriousness of it all but countered that with an awareness of statistics that are overwhelmingly in my favor.
The easy going relationship I established with the Radiation Warriors smoothed things out too.
But I rolled out of bed this morning and bounced down the stairs like a red rubber ball. I was caught off guard at just how good I felt.
So, obviously, Inner Joe has been hunkered down under the weight of it all, keeping a low profile, allowing Outer Joe to get through the process in relative calm.
Today, Inner Joe is back and he is laughing.
Tonight Carol and I are going out to dinner to celebrate. And tomorrow................................
tomorrow will be my first day off from work since April 6 when I DO NOT have to drive into Concord to get zapped. Tomorrow will be a day of uninterrupted peace. It will be slow moving and soul-nourishing.
I..................cannot.....................wait.
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