At this point I'd settle for the life Howard Ratner lived in Uncut Gems.
Including the bullet to the head that did him in.
His life was a pathetic struggle, built on a foundation of ridiculous dreams and schemes, but there are different levels of pathetic. Pathetic with money - even if it's temporary and an illusion - is better than pathetic with no money.
If you have stretches in your life when you live well, you are ahead of the game, ahead of most struggling no-hopers. So die young; at least you had some fun.
Carol went to bed at 11:00, leaving me in my recliner/bed. I was feeling lost. I caught the last hour of Uncut Gems (which I have seen before) alone, in the dark. It suited my mood perfectly.
I set it to record on Sunday so I can watch it from the beginning.
So I can empathize with Howard Ratner's enormous, and ultimately, prematurely fatal, struggle with life.
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