Sorry I'm Sad

I'm sorry I'm sad.

It makes you uncomfortable,

doesn't it?

You'd prefer that I fake it, 

wear the same stillborn smile 

you wear every day.

Pretend I'm ok.

I'm not.

You don't have to do anything special,

don't have to cheer me up.

Just leave me alone.

Accept that I hurt more than I can hide today.

You are not bulletproof, so don't waste my time and

don't expect me to waste yours.

I'm sorry I'm sad.

I won't laugh at your lame jokes today;

there's a lesson in that for you.

Won't engage in inane conversation,

won't say anything I don't mean.

I am pure truth today, against my will.

My truth today is stifling sadness.

I don't expect you to understand.

I expect you to leave me alone.