Aurora

I am so sick of turning on my TV to see coverage of another mass shooting.
The concept is so mind boggling that I should not even be able to write a sentence like that. That kind of tragedy is something that should happen every hundred years, if at all. Not every couple of years or couple of months.
I have numbed myself through the last few, which is a sad statement in itself. But this one got through and stirred outrageous emotion.
Maybe I have had enough.
I'm sure in every case there are different motives in the killer's mind and various life experiences or brain deviations that motivate to pull the trigger on innocent people.
I think the whole thing goes much deeper than that.
I think we are a sick society. We are so unhappy and so unfulfilled and so helpless to try and correct the situation. Our lives are frustrating to the max. You cannot get ahead, you cannot get fair treatment and opportunity, you are disrespected at every turn and the people in power openly laugh at you. They ridicule you and your lifestyle to your face.
Politicians play games with your future, the people with money lie, cheat and steal to get rich and you go to work, if you are lucky enough to have a job, and you cannot even afford to buy a pizza.
The country is becoming more soul-less, less human, at an accelerating pace.
Our work ethic in this country is ridiculous. Two weeks vacation is a joke. Other countries celebrate leisure time and the enjoyment of life. Here we are trained to work our asses off and we brag about how industrious and hard working we are. We should be proud of the fact that we also excel at heart attacks and suicides.
And mass murder.
This guy is twenty four. What could be so bad in the life of someone so young that would drive him to kill? Maybe the question should be how does it happen so fast?
Is our society so sick that even people who are born in the midst of the sickness recognize it as so?
I have been around for almost six decades and I have witnessed the steady decline of individual dignity in this country and I understand why so many people are so angry.
But you would think somebody born to it would be impervious to it, at least for a while.
There was plenty of evil around when I was a kid. But it seemed like there were more people making it, and if you hung on long enough you could count on a solid retirement and a home that was paid for acting as a rock of financial security.
Those things are gone, everything is loose and unpredictable and information is available at lightening-like speed 24/7 to make you aware of that.
There is a basic war between the "life" we have built in this country and human nature.
Human nature requires peace, a balanced equation, a sense of fairness. Without that you have insanity.
We are experiencing insanity on a national level. Considering the mind boggling number of lost, angry, unemployed and underemployed people out there, millions of people whose spirit of life can get no nourishment, people who stagger through life feeling nothing because to feel something is too painful, we are lucky we don't have mass shootings every day.
Maybe someday we will.
A friend of one of the victims said his friend had moved to Denver to pursue her dream. She got killed in a movie theater by a stranger.
Maybe the American Dream today is to not be killed by someone who has been crushed by the lack of a real American Dream.