I go to bed around 12:30 every night now.
I wake up between 6 and 7. In other words, I don't get up at 3:00 am to piss any more - for now.
This is a fucking miracle.
If I get up at 3 am, I will be awake for the next hour and a half - minimum.
This always makes me angry. Especially since I have to lie there and listen to Carol breathing rhythmically in her sleep. Taunting me in peaceful repose.
I say "for now" because I tried this experiment before. It worked, then it didn't. Old age is an unpredictable motherfucker.
For whatever reason, it feels more natural this time. It's working. Has been for a couple of months.
It is a blessing.
Too much information?
Tough shit.
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