It was insanely cold. Josh looked out the window at frozen snow, treacherous ice, fallen trees and urgently racing squirrels, and lusted for summer.
Visions of smoke cloaking the barbecue grill, cold beads of condensation running lazily down a frosted mug filled with a pretentious designer beer, favorite T-shirts casually caressing a beer gut, and easy shorts baring ivory white chicken legs, soothed his tortured mind.
Winter had been slapping Josh around all his life. He couldn't seem to get away from it and he didn't really know why.
The cold shriveled him up, folded him into half of who he really was and took away a lot of options.
His charming personality was compromised during the winter months because he spent most of that time complaining about the cold. Obsessing about it, trying to figure out a way to justify living in it, ducking in and out of it like a wild animal desperate for safe harbor.
Until recently. Josh turned a corner into the new year as temperatures plummeted, and his mind grasped a new potential.
Suddenly (after a lifetime of incubation) it became crystal clear that winter was a time for transformation. For evolving.
Why not?
Nobody was looking. Nobody would ever see it coming.
He could change his life, change his habits, change his outlook and emerge into spring a new man.
Barely recognizable and infinitely improved.
Long hours spent inside created potential for study and reflection, for illuminating dark corners and identifying what was real and necessary, and what was aberration.
The cold stimulated focus and intensified alertness. Josh's mind was better poised to absorb new concepts, to adapt to familiar stimuli in more useful ways, and to accept change rather than to deflect it.
He felt powerful.
It was Josh's delicious secret. In the dark, at night, reading, studying and improving himself, evolving into the man he always knew he could be.
A man to be reckoned with.
It was insanely cold. Josh took a break from his determination to look out the window at a bleak and frozen landscape.
He smiled.
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